Unnoticed.

Have you ever felt so existing to the world, but in reality you’re just invisible. Invisible to the one you don’t want to ever be, but you’re the cause to why. It hurts so much and all you can do is move forward and make sure you do better for yourself. The best you can do is pray that all the change and positivity will make the situation better. Mistakes really do teach you something and some are small and some are big, but the best is yet to come. I’m not going to give up the fight even if it takes some time. If you feeling down or going through something don’t push away or shut down, it makes things much worse and will damage you and love ones. Trust me, I know. Remind yourself you’re stronger than whatever you’re going through and you have God with you. Talk to someone you trust or even seek counseling. The longer you keep it in or keep letting it take over your life the more damage will happen and the more it will hurt. The more time it will take for all to heal. You can do this. I am at the phase of trying to heal the damage I did wrong and sometimes it still hurts and can be hard, but then there are other days that are so much better and helps me to have my faith stronger during the good and bad. No matter what, I will keep moving forward to better myself.

Tonight adventures.

This evening I will be watching my cousin. He is 15 months old. I miss my buddy. It will be an adjustment to balance my daughter, my cousin and the dogs but I know I can do it and my husband will be home soon to help. Bath night for both. Plan to watch a movie before bedtime. Once kids asleep, just sit back and relax. More to come later about tonight adventures.

Friday.

Today, I went into work and of course it was slow. I worked on my computer training and hate it because I remember most of it anyways. I picked up my daughter and it was so good seeing her. My days at work feel so long when I am away from her now. We played a little bit but she really needed a nap so it was a little battle but I got her down and I went down for one two. I was tired lol. Afterwards we did bath time and ate some food. She is growing so much it’s crazy. I feel like everyday she looks different because she’s growing up more everyday. Now just really waiting for the day she starts talking because baby talk is a language that I’m still learning, but she is so cute with her baby talk. I started to watch the series of seven seconds. So far the first episode was good. It gave me an eye opener about how fast life can change for you in a blink of an eye. Now I am just thinking about everything I want to accomplish for myself and do with my daughter before she grows up on me. Life is a precious thing and I don’t want it to be nothing more than precious.

Thursday.

Have you ever try to figure out how can you do so much in one day or even so little? I am starting to see how much can be done and how much cannot be done while being a mother and wife. It is so crazy how things change for so much better for me since I had my daughter. Today, I am just thinking and looking back at how much she has grown and how much time is changing. I went from carrying her for 9 months with fatigue, lotssssss of bathroom breaks, tons of hunger to sleepless nights and not wanting to do anything but sleep. Now, I am back to work got a nice house schedule with the cleaning and truth is I don’t even follow it. I just go with the day now and today made me realize things will get done when they get done. I am a mother and wife also have 2 dogs and a turtle, business I’ll say. We as women do so much in a day and sometimes we don’t realize it until we sit down and realize what we didn’t do today. Honestly, it’s nice that I can notice but still get it done even when I’m completely exhausted some nights. If you’re reading this and totally feel the same way, what is some advice to get better with some more motivation to get the other things done and not feel so overwhelmed, but also able to sit back and not think about what you didn’t do either? My problem is thinking about what I need to do and don’t do it lol. There are days I just don’t want too but I tell myself yeah I can do this and it gets done, but what gets me is, as a mother we are told nap when your child does. But sometimes that doesn’t even happen. As you see I rambled a lot on this and this is because that’s me and it’s Thursday and randomly thought about blogging about anything and if there’s something you want me to blog I will freely give it a shot. A new hobby in the making. Thanks for reading it this far. Have a great night 😄